before 30's: April 2006

5/4/2006

今日下晝約左人去打波。
心情平伏左好多，
可能只係唔去諗啫。

4/4/2006

無乜特別
淨係去左三聯買左本書。
夜晚佢打嚟找咭數，
講完就收線lu
真係咁眼瞓咩。
算啦。

3/4/2006

噢，尋晚好夜先返屋企。今日返工都有少少眼瞓。
同埋傾左一陣電話講左好多野。

2/4/2006

今晚去左朋友度食飯同飲左d酒。氣氛好好我種意今晚。

30/3/2006

今晚同阿M講番原來我有好多原因令到Y好唔開心，例如上年新年相機事件(佢仲同阿M講到喊)、佢飲茶唔飲汔水、佢星期三去瑜珈等。新年時我部機真係借左俾朋友，不過佢唔信。我知道佢好想有張全家愊同我部機好似影得好d。佢飲茶唔飲汔水，我認我有時唔知佢都飲邊樣所以會問佢飲乜野。星期三我一定記得佢去瑜珈不過我有時開場白係會問佢去邊但有時我係唔醒起嗰日係星期三…

1/4/2006

今日約左朋友A下晝睇戲但d戲都係唔啱咁我就同佢去左行下IFC，跟住我就同佢去左食個tea，再之後同佢去左駱克道買瓷磚俾J隻狗，咁就送佢返屋企，本來我諗住送埋佢返屋企我都走喇但跟住佢見我咁慘就同左我睇戲喇同食左d野(好感動呀~)，跟住佢個朋友打俾佢有事找佢出嚟傾，咁我又送左佢去之後我就返屋企。

31/3/2006

宜家到我想結婚喇，但新娘走左…

29/3/2006

There is something happen today. She called me this morning and said she was having an interview in my company this afternoon. When this afternoon come, I thought she has come to Alan’s room and having interview. However, when she finished the interview she called me and said she met Mr Tse and Martin. Subsequently, I made a call to the colleague in 17/F and asked who would be the potential team leader of her. Finally, I went to ask Martin directly and he said she succeed and our company will employ her but the problem is they still have not decided which team she will go to. I tried to persuade Martin to let her work under his supervision. At least, I know he is not a bad guy and not very busy under his teams.

28/3/2006

今日夜晚所有人走哂，我鼓起勇氣同我Team Leader - S講呢兩個星期因為私人事影響工作，所以同佢講聲唔好意思。同佢好似講左成個半鐘，氣氛好似同個阿哥講嘢咁，佢都講左d佢屋企太太、家姊d嘢俾我知，同例如佢點做事分配時間呀，佢同佢太太幾時結婚呀等等，講左出嚟又係舒服d。我都同佢講唔係想做少d嘢，只不過係想同佢講聲唔好意思。我都講左唔想話因為呢個時期，我做少d佢地做多d，對佢地都唔公平吖。

27/03/2006

尋晚又發惡夢d惡夢好真實
我夢見阿Y同我講佢己經同個男仔同左樓
仲一齊供緊
我心想乜發展得咁快
唉，雖然我成日同自己講唔好諗佢會返轉頭
呢次唔同文茵Dee嗰d
佢死哂心仲係好嬲我嗰隻
但我每晚都成日發埋夢都係最懷同最hurt自己既諗法
己經兩個星期啦
兩個星期前簡直係想死
兩個星期後的今天其實成日想有人陪同傾計
今日收到協x叫我星期三去見工
但而家既我又點可能一個人去澳門住呢
就講尋日我都要搵佢地同我食晚餐先得啦
我呢個時候係唔想一個人囉
頭先打俾阿S 同A都叫我去見左先
唔好啦
我想搵份政府工算喇雖然都唔係話你想做就做到

26/3/2006

我諗我都係得閒要打下日記，如果唔係會唔記得d野。
今日都算過得開心呀。
今早起身打左俾好多人，約左朋友A喺尖咀等，咁我又打左俾葆都傾左有成個幾鐘…仲傾到無左一舊電呢。最後A就同我去左LCX食呢個’Strawberry’ 食甜品。咁之後等佢個朋友仔同佢會合睇側田。咁之後我6:45就約左L, 劉生，文茵，dee去荃灣食’嚼江南’ 每人都係$85，ok，唔貴。
之後又去左阿茵屋玩琴，真係俾劉生嚇親，完來佢都識彈琴，仲彈左首Imagine。勁搞笑。

25/3/2006

陳奕迅的落花流水好有意思
'' 講分開可否...
流水不過送運...
水點各不留下...''

而家既我對所有事都感受好深
最近唔知邊個講一個人最失意係最有情感
我有好深感受

我真係無諗過會無佢的日子
我一路都係諗住以為我的日子會有佢
我一直都只係想佢會係我太太
我會同佢生小朋友
但我也憂慮我的經濟能力只會令佢跟我一齊捱
俾唔到幸福佢
但太突然喇
就咁就無左
係我對佢唔好我同意
分左手有一晚我好掛住佢
好想打電話俾佢
我問佢可唔可以喺番埋一齊
佢覺得唔可以
亦唔會同而家呢個男友分開
我真係好唔開心
我知道佢依然好嬲我
佢話''一個男仔如果對仔唔好你都唔會同佢喺埋一齊啦!!''
是言詞好肯定
我刻覺得佢好絶
一個你鍾意佢佢鍾意你既人
一個你講最多你心裡面想法的人
一個你成為你生活一部份有五年半的人
佢可以咁樣同你講
佢一定係好憎好憎你

有時候分左手可以找朋友傾
但我己經找搵左好多好多朋友傾
我覺得而家有朋友覺得我煩呢
我覺得再同佢地傾都係咁
我自己都唔可以安慰到自己

而家好喇
有個人可以佢唔開心時候同佢一齊
可以縮短唔開心的時間
雖然我都感受到佢呢個月的唔開心

有陣時我好自私
我都好想找個人跟我拍拖
但其實我自己應該係未放得低佢
我自己都唔可以100percent投入

最開心的是我唔開心時候有一班朋友我唔開心時真心安慰我
我有點內咎係當佢地(朋友m)唔開心的時候我無認真地幫佢地
但佢都可依然幫我呢點我好感動
呢個時候我最唔可以接受係一個人獨處
一個人會諗唔開心的事情

L好好
佢對我真係最好
佢會真係去書局買本書俾我
唉'當你失戀' - 作者張小嫻
真係一本好書
作者應該係失過戀
如否則係寫唔到呢本書
可以一個普通人睇
係無感覺
可能我自己以前就無感覺喇而家我唔開心都會打開嚟睇

before 30's

Tuesday, April 04, 2006